It's a sunny warm day.
Listening to the drilling work outside makes this day look so "summer" and lazy.(& sleepy)
(Just pretend that the drilling sound is like the cricket sound you should hear in Summer.
Ah...the lazy plains of....erm..Sukiyaki?
Ok..I dunno a thing.What is that Chong Xian Dao of Japan call in English?)

Uh huh,if ya wondering how come I am hearing all this at a time like this.(Monday afternoon....)
I'm at home la.
Took leave to settle an interview all the way at B.Batok.(thanks to my dearest cabby uncle who drives me there)
It's YMCA childcare centre.(and I tot I applied for the other one at Woodlands?)
I didnt go there wanting to secure that job.
Not that I dun want to,but it is really far to far.
All the BUKITS are like another island apart.
The supervisor is willing to gimme a chance..but think I have to turn her down.(how to..-_-)
I went there more in taking the chance to find up more about this kinda environment,what's the industrys' demand etc.
Gotten quite a fair bit of insights from her.Hehz*
She wanted me to take another day leave so that I could join them for a day.If that day is ok,she will send me to the HQ for another interview before I can work.
Am contemplating to,I mean..having a chance to be in the kindergarden is one thing.
But I dun wanna attend that one day and then have to go thru all the hassle of interviewing again when that place isnt really what I want.
It is too far la~
Maybe I should just email her(and not call..coward*) that my boss refused to entitle another day leave due to the tight schedule in work(right!) and I have got a better offer which is nearer..(Right..right!)

But indeed...this is one job that really talks about sacrificials.
It is the off going of monetary terms.
The off going of an easy 8-6 work in an air con office.
And lots more.

It's not easy and that is merely an understatement.
So those who look down on the role of teachers(particulary pre school or kindergarden teachers) should all go die,pls.
I hope next time you would rip your head apart when coaching ur own kid.
Evil..
So what?

Back on my personal touch.
First,I wanna give my darling Yng a hug.
Thanks for calling anyway,though you truely take away a good night sleep.
I cant sleep after your call coz I was too frustrated and sad to.
Hehz.

Thanks to dear Evey,ok it's Eve, for all the help.
You always give your all when it comes to friends.And I hope one day I can do the same back.
18th June...coming soon.^^

Since the start of this month,it has been a lil awful time for me.
First,I never got to see Jason much.
Second I am kinda fedup for the things that my bro left behind.And I am really the only one that should and can settle for this now.
Thank God I dont have to pay that $600 bucks!

And so it may be that I am just being complainson...complainsome..whatever..But I am just being fedup.
Each time I tell myself to snap outta it and stop being a baby,but I guess I really just need a lil support as well.
No one walks alone,yea?
Indeed being independent can brush up your heart that wants to be strong,but being together with a group of people that can support you will make you a finer man than ever.

Anyway I guess it is more of Jason.
Last weekend,I have gotten so upset that the damange inflicted was quite a hole.
Shouldnt elaborate more here coz what's over is over.
I am just very upset that he cant commit more of his time for me.(And I thought meeting once a week is bad enough.Taking away that full day of that once a week is really unpardonable to me.)

It is no amount of 'sorries' and really nothing he can do.That's where the frustration builds on for both of us.

I dunno about him.
But if I can be so upset about it,I guess partly the pain I felt came from him too.

Blah.
Over..Over*
..

Next on..for Mother's day.
So what have you done?=)

Intially I wanted to bring my mum to the Fortun ate Restaurant.I guess it is within my budget and that I could blink a lil more to my own fund reserves.
What upsets me more(and it adds on to my unhappiness over the last weekend) is that she kept on refusing.
I mean,I can understand that maybe she doesnt want me to spend the money..but it is still hurting if you were to keep rejecting my good will like that.

Having no choice,I went all the way to PS(and it was raining like shit) to return the things my bro owed,and to see if there is anything I can buy for my mum.
It was a Bad Hair Day.(EVERY woman hates to be associated with that term)
Zoom in and out..there is nothing I can find.

Outta desperation,I went in to TAKA jewellery.
They are always giving out phamplets and discounting yea?
So I thought I might get some steals.

Walk outta the shop...
Ka ching $104!
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It is not really about the money that I cant bear,but it really means with this exceeding the budget I allocatedI have to make further plannings.
(yes,shamely,I only expect a $80.HEY..I am not earning and I have far too many expenses to cover.You wont survive if you are in my shoes.)
And this really means that I have to count on Jacob's breakfast biscuits to fill my stomach and my energy level all the time.

Thank god..she didnt add on stupid comments on why am I wasting that money.Or I would be so sad and fed up that I could retorted that as a charity act to spite her.(thought it wont make me feel better)

Whatever it is,I have myself to thank the one up there that:

I have a healthy family,after all.I can celebrate my mother and fathers' day with the ones that I love and that they deserved.Though my acts doesnt really deserve their loving sometimes.

I have good friends all around.
I shouldnt have to mention names.

I still have the strength to go on and really trace out my future,the route that I am taking.

After every storm,painted a fine fine rainbow.*
(Right,Jason?)

Just keep the motivation gg on.
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